Thursday, October 29, 2009

A Change

Most years I made resolutions only to watch them fall to the side. Either I do not stay committed or cannot find the time, something, any excuse I can find! Well, I have a new one and I need ways to follow through! This one is BIG, and truly life changing. I need to completely re-prioritize my life and I need to stick to it. I need to rid my life of drama and the people that bring that. I need to surround myself with happy, inspirational people. I need to look into myself and see what I really want! What will make me happy.

I am not sure of all the details yet, but I know that change is in the air! If you have any advice to offer, please do...remember though that I don't always listen:)

Monday, October 26, 2009

Small Town Politics!

When I was a kid my mother told my father over and over again that if he ran for a political office she was taking the kids and leaving. It has been a very long time since I first heard her say it and until very recently I thought she was being a psycho, now I know she wasn't! SMALL TOWN POLITICS SUCK!!!

Small town politics suck because unlike national office or even state, in local politics, you are eating where you shit! In STP(small town politics), you have to try so hard to be nice to everyone and let's face it, that is not going to happen. You need to like your neighbor, your mailman, your cashier at McDonald's, the horrible parent down the street whose kid egged your house, the principle of the school who just refused to help you with your kid, the lady in church who always sings sooo loud and off-key and then gives you dirty looks when your kid dare to talk during the mass, you know EVERYONE! So mom, now I get it, STP SUCKS!

What I am finding most annoying about STP, is how two-faced the players are. The lying and sneaking, I now know where all the popular kids from High School ended up:) The people who somehow believe that they deserve more than all the other people who bust their asses helping out!

What I have decided is that make my mom was not the psycho(let me change that...not psycho about this:) Small Town Politics SUCK and I am sooo not cut-out for the ass-kissing needed to play:)

Thursday, October 22, 2009

After Much Thought...

I have gone back-and-forth about writing this post and have decided to go ahead and do so. I am sure there will be plenty of people that disagree with it, but as long as you are thinking, I am happy to have you disagree.

For 10 months now I have been waiting for something positive to come from the Obama Administration and still nothing! Nothing positive that is! What is worse is the piling negatives. To be fair, I will once again remind everyone that I did not vote for Obama, and in the tow previous elections I did vote for Bush(mostly because that administration paid the bills).

On to my issues:
1- the ridiculous fighting with FOX News has got to end! Just because someone disagrees with you does not mean that they are wrong! What makes me really upset about this is the issue of freedom of the press. While FOX may not be reporting the stories in a light that is always positive to Mr. Obama, there is no slander or lies. Seriously, White House, when the rest of your press pool has to side with FOX against you, you have to see that you are crossing the line!
Get over FOX News and start working on moving our country in the right direction! What happened to change? Let's CHANGE the school yard bullying and play ball!

2- Stop talking about Health Care! Just stop! Go back to the drawing table, decided what you want to put out there and do it! If what you are saying is true and health care reform will "save" the United States, then come up with a plan and do it! Stand by your plan! Do not change it weekly, daily based on public opinion, stand by what you believe and do it! If your plan does not pass Congress at least know that it was the plan YOU believed was best for the country! We have a President for a reason, to make the tough decisions, for Christ sake, start asking like the President!

3- While I understand that the taxpayers are waiting to be repaid billions of dollars in bailout money, I think the Obama Administration is walking a very fine line on there involvement in private business. You need to either take over the companies and make them public or back-off! You can not have one foot in the door here!

4- Afghanistan. It is a mess. I do not envy you for having to make the call on this one, but again, JUST MAKE A DECISION! YOU Mr. Obama are the President! The Buck stops with you! The people of this great nation need a leader not someone to read the polls to us every morning and decide our next course of action!

5- People protesting against your ideas/programs does not make them Un-American or racist, it makes them informed, concerned citizens with opinions that differ from yours and that of your administration. Remember that nearly half of all Americans did not vote for you, but you do represent them too and for them to express their concerns is not wrong, it is there right! It is what made America! Free thinkers that allow for the majority to rule. That does not mean that you step away from your beliefs, but peaceful share them!

That's it! Those are my opinions on the first 10months of the Obama Presidency. All those people that criticized, lied, challenged President Bush for 8 years are not enjoying the shoe being on the other foot! Maybe it wasn't as easy as it looked:)

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Just Then...

After struggling to find my way with school for the kids, PTO, the house and my Master's, I was getting it together when all at once it stopped! Stopped! Dead!

Last week it all ended. I got sick, followed quickly by Killi and later Maggie. Getting sick and then having sick kids to care for has completely ruined what little routine I had going. I had just gotten Maggie back in school, Killi was getting on a good homework schedule, I was finding time to get my school work and PTO commitments met and all at once it was over. I was diagnosed with pneumonia, most likely from H1N1, and I was forced to close-up shop. I left my house only once from Saturday to Tuesday and that was for a trip to the pediatrician, very dirty I might add. I spent Friday, Saturday and Sunday in bed almost all day. I spent the nights up trying to breath and settle sick monsters. Saturday Declan had some friends over for pizza before going to the movies and honestly, it is a big blur.

Today has been a turning point I think. I woke this morning able to breath and feeling like I just had a cold. Maggie was at about 90% and Killi was about 70%, but everyone was on the mend. We ran some errands and disinfected the house, cooked dinner and worked on some homework with the kids, we are on the mend. I am tired now. Hoping that I did not push myself too much. I feel too tired for homework or even last night's Gossip Girl:) Instead I sit and wonder how long it will take to get back into a routine after 5 days out of one. Seems that for each day out it takes 3 additional to get back in. I guess that means that I should just take it slow and go with the flow. A routine will find itself just like it had before we got sick.

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Crazy, I know!

While I know that this goes wiothout saying, I am Crazy, and with the recent illness in our house I have been searching for all I can about swine flu and pneumonia(no, we have not tested positive for flu...just crazy)anyway, what I have found is that most of the children dying from swine flu complication are getting Pneumonia and there seems to be a link in the ages of the deaths and the introduction of the Prevnar vaccine. Prevnar was introduced in 2000 and worked into the childhood vaccine schedule, but children born before that did not receive the shot, it was only give to children under 2 and newborns. So, check to see if your children have been vaccinated! They have lots of into on the CDC site about Pneumonia and the vaccine and swine flu deaths.
Please remember that I am crazy, but also thought I would share what I found:)

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Givin' In!!!

I have been fighting it for days and hoping it was just allergies, but now I fear it is not and I have a cold. I feel yucky! I want to stay in bed ALL Day tomorrow! Stupid husband is busy at work tomorrow and cannot stay home to help and Declan has football tomorrow night! It is chilly. I am very on edge. My meds are making me anxious! And oh yeah, I am a BIG BABY when I don't feel well:) I would like my family to be at my beck-n-call, but NO! They would rather continue with their own lives and let me take-care of myself!

I would like a nice warm beach with no one on it! Just me and the waves:)

A New Obsession!

Because I am "odd" to say the least, I will share with you my new obsession, nostrils! Have you ever really looked at people's nostrils? Well, I have been and I would like to share with you that they are NEVER the same size and most of the time one side is much bigger than the other! It is very weird. And why is that? You have a perfectly balanced face then...their is a glaring difference in the size and shape of your nostrils, WTF??? I stumbled onto this by chance and now I wish I had not because it is all I can do not to check-out nostrils.

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Frustrated!

Frustrated! and that really does not do my feelings right now justice! I am very out-of-sorts right now. There are several issues in my life right now that that are in upheaval and that would be okay if they were all in the same area, i.e. all kid related, all school related, but they are not, they span the entire life!

I will start with the least frustrating and work my way up/down from there. My house is a mess! I have so much laundry, I am a load behind in dishes and we are very unorganized! We had hoped to go camping tomorrow, but I am not sure how that is going to happen without coming back to a disaster zone!

Next, my school has started and I do not have my books yet and I have never felt so stupid in my life! I am not sure how I was accepted into this program! And to piggy-back on the school thing, my student loans are a disaster! It is an insane bureaucracy of government and quasi-government organizations and it makes me wonder if interest rates could be lower on student loans if there were not all these layers of crap! Now, after 2 hours on the phone with 2 different colleges, the dept. of education, and sallie mae too many times to count, I found out I can do nothing until November!

My in-laws suck! This is not a new phenomena, it just now involves their treatment of my children, so now I am pissed-off! Yes, they forgot my son's birthday because the are so "over-whelmed" by their new 4 week old grandson that is living with them! Please understand that my SIL and BIL are also there, and it is one 4 week old baby and only 1 of the adults is working! This behavior is not new for my in-laws, in the past however, my children were not at the center. It was usually them treating me like a piece of shit, which has been going on for 19 years now!

Finally, I had a meeting with the powers-that-be at my kids school. It was about Killi and her "learning issues". I got what I had expected from the meeting, but not what I wanted! It is amazing to me the double-talk that is done when dealing with little children and their education! The out-come is that we will meet again in December and see where we are at. In the meantime, I will continue to explore private options! Thank God my taxes are fairly low, and I am not paying millions for public school education and getting F***ed!

Hopefully I can resolve some of these issues over the weekend and relax and enjoy my family! Ben is off tomorrow and I am sure I will be able to sleep in and wake-up refreshed and with a new outlook on life! Yes friends, I am hoping he reads this and I am just wishing aloud;-)

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Hummm...

Today continued much like the past week has, crazy and unpredictable! I started the day with a ride to Bethesda for a doctor's appointment for Killi, so that was a nice LONG ride on 95 and the beltway! The appointment went fairly well and I was given the documentation needed to get us moving in the right direction.

I ran home, made a few phone calls and ran out to get Declan from school. On my way in, my mother called to tell me that my grandfather had just passed away! That was nice icing on top of my very crazy cake! I know I had mentioned, more than once that I was not going to NJ until my brother's wedding next November unless someone died...really???? I would have come if someone asked, there was no reason for a death:) On a serious note, my grandfather lived a very long and until very recently, active life. He was an interesting guy. He spent his career as a doctor and he had an opinion on everything! In fact, I wonder if the election of Obama last November is what made him unable to continue on;-)

So, we are headed to NJ. The monsters will get to see their Happy that they have been really missing and they will meet their new cousin! Hopefully this is the end of what has been a very uncomfortable and hard week!

Let's just hope the husband reminds the in-laws that I am a woman on the edge so I don't have to "freak-out" there too;-)