It Must Be Me.

So, we are at my parents for the holidays. I am very happy to be here spending the holidays with them, but I will admit that the decision to come was not all made with joy. As most of you know, my father was diagnosed with Lung Cancer a few months ago and it sucks! He has had surgery and will start chemo next Monday. His doctors are very optimistic so I too am trying. But some days are easier than others for me and I am sure for the rest of my family. Nevertheless, we are here for the holidays!

This is also the first year that my mom is celebrating the holidays without a call to NJ to wish either of her parents a Merry Christmas, as we lost my Pop-Pop a few months ago. I think she is happy that we are here and I hope it makes it a bit easier for her. It has been a long time since she spent the holiday with her family, but I still think the first Christmas without a loved one is the hardest.

There was more difficult news from my Brother and his crew over the past few months too! News that has caused changes in their future and wedding plans. It is a good thing the road has been so rocky lately, everyone seems much more willing to go with the flow when changes need to be made;-)

What I am learning from the past few months is that time is not unlimited! No matter how much you try, you can never get more. You need to made the most of it. Everyday and every moment is not going to be a good one, but there is no need to dwell on the bad ones just know that you can make the next one better.

I had been having a really difficult time with that concept the past few months, but I am trying. I am going to work everyday to enjoy the good and move past the bad. I hope that is what I get from this holiday season.

My life is good! My Monsters Rock! My Husband is the Best! And my family and friends bring me joy!

Merry Christmas Everyone and Happy New Year!

Another Bump!

Today I went to the dentist for what was supposed to be a filling, but like EVERYTHING in my life these days, it did not go as planned. I ended up having an emergency root canal! I had an infected tooth that caused an abscess. So, what was to be a 15 min filling, turned into 3 hrs in the chair and more pain now than I had when I walked in! My tooth is throbbing! My ear, face and jaw hurt so bad from the shot of Novocaine and I cannot sleep! I have tried motrin and vicoden and I am still unable to sleep. I have also tried ice! I am tired and in pain!