A Night Out!

I don't "go out" often, never have. The bar scene is not my thing. I am not a big drinker and would never pay a babysitter to go to a bar! Last night however, I went to karaoke with a few friends and had a wonderful time! Ben stayed home the monsters, with absolutely no bitching:) It was very nice! And I have to say that I did not sing, as I know I am not very good:) But I did laugh alot!

Thanks! to my husband and friends for a much enjoyed night of fun!

Yes, I am in a foul mood, but...

I do a lot of blog reading, probably too much:) Some people I know personally, some I know from blogging and have become blog "friends" with, and still others I just read their blog with no interaction with them other than what they write. Anyway, where I am headed with this is how "unrealistic" people can make their "blog lives". There is really no way to know how much is real and that is fine, but interesting. I also find it a bit like cheating. I think it is cheating when you blog and make everything seem like sunshine and roses! Why have a blog then? Why write in your blog only about the "good" and the "happy" when real life happens everyday. I am not talking about those blogs I read that are geared to one part of your life, I am talking about those that portray the "perfect family life" where a perfect mom and dad live, with their perfect kids.

Back to my very imperfect and real life!

Under the Weather!

I am not feeling 100%! My throat is scratchy, my ear is clogged and I have not slept in...well, a very long time! The nights have been LONG here. The kids are sick and not sleeping and I have had too much to do! Yet nothing at all is getting done:) We are supposed to camp on Saturday, so I need to be better!!!

Trip...

It got canceled! Maybe in another 7 years:)

A Trip...Alone:)

In 7 1/2 years, I have not left my kids and husband alone! I have spent a few nights away with my husband(usually a few miles from my parents, where the kids were)and the kids and I have traveled without Ben, but in 7 1/2 years, I have not been away alone! I think that is about to change!

I have a friend that will be about 3 hours away from me next week and I think I am going to take a little ride to visit and spend the night! It will not be much, I will get the monsters off to school in the morning and then have the sitter get them after school until Ben gets home, then Ben will see them off to school the next morning and I will be back to pick them up! It will only be about 24 hours, but I think I should do it! I want to do it! It will be fun!

Ben says he is okay with it as long as I have a plan for the kids, but I know there will be hell to pay for this little trip when I get back! I think that I okay though, I am going to do it anyway. And I really do need to do this for all of us! Ben and the kids need to see that I do have a life and I need to give myself a little break and trust that life can go on without me.

I hope that next week will come and I will be reporting about a wonderful 24 hours with an old friend!

The Ride

around and around, it goes
it is up, then it is down.
a quick breath...faster,
it continues.

at last, it STOPS!
you slide off.

but wait! you miss it.
looking for a way to try
again.

it is then you realize,
this not the way!
you have a chance,
take it.

Blogging

I wish I blogged more. I enjoy the outlet it gives me to get things off my chest that I normally hold in, but it also allows me the chance to look back over things that have happened in my life. With the constant ride I am on learning, living and loving it is good to look back at the moments that went by too quick or others that I were tough but I need to relive:(

For now, as I sit at a table in St Thomas blogging, things are good. Tomorrow brings a trip home and back to reality on Monday! Good thing is that the school year is almost over and the pool will soon be open! Life just seems better and easier in the summer. I know the kids are home and need entertaining but it still seems easier!