Itʻs Been Too Long.

I have not blogged in some time and trust me, it is NOT because I cannot find things to write about:) I have been hesitant to blog sometimes with all my posts going directly to FB. I stop and think all to often if I REALLY want EVERYONE to see my thoughts, but now I have decided that people donʻt have to read my blog if they donʻt want to and how many people from FB take the time to hope over and read it. With that said, I am going to try to get back to blogging regularly since it relieves some of my stress to bitch "out loud".

The school year is 5 days away from being over and I am both happy and sad about this. I am so happy not having to get up and be somewhere in the morning, but I also donʻt want to waste the summer away sitting at the pool and sleeping in. I want to be disciplined enough to have the kids read some books and continue learning their sight words, but structure, discipline and follow through are NOT my strongest areas:)

I am pretty much a quitter. When things get tough or require some effort, I really have no desire to do them anymore. This, I know is an awful trait that I need to find a way to change. I wonder what other people have inside of them that makes them so devoted and willing to work so hard and why I donʻt. I try to remember before I started taking meds if I had that drive, sometimes I even stop taking them to see if that is it, but that never ends well;) I wonder if it is because I have never been pushed hard enough or needed to work for what I needed or really for what I want. Whatever the reason, I want to change it. I want to "want" enough to follow through, to work hard, to put my all into something, I just donʻt know how to get started.