Decisions

I think that people often act before thinking their decisions through. Most times the plans we make in our heads, do not play out that way in real life. When we are just "thinking" things through, it is easy to forget about the little details of life. The problem with that is that REAL LIFE is always there in the end!

So, maybe people should "think" before they say or do things. Really think about how your decision is going to affect you and everyone else. And not just on an immediate level, but long term. You might be surprised how powerful your decision will be to your friends and/or family.

How Am I? Thanks For Asking...

It's been a week and I will tell you, I got better, but it didn't last long! The cough lessened for a few days; now, it is back and I have lots to cough up. I also have something swollen on the side of my neck and my ear hurts. I am very tired and have had a headache for two days. I wonder if there is any chance of me EVER getting healthy before spring!

I guess when I get home, I will head back to the doctor and see what they can come up with next. I am just getting a bit tired of never playing at 100%. Believe me, I know there are many people that live everyday much worse off then me,and I am thankful not to be sick with anything serious, I am just sick of the not feeling well, because I know how good it feels when I am healthy:) I want that back!

Pneumonia!

All my coughing this week has apparently been caused to pneumonia. The doctor called today to confirm it. I knew it was either bronchitis or pneumonia, but I was hoping that I had eluded the pneumonia this time as it is so early in the cold/flu season, but no luck! I am starting to feel better though, now it is just the coughing! It is making my stomach and chest hurt sooooo bad!

When I get back from vacation, I will have some more tests run to see why I keep getting pneumonia and see what I can do not to keep getting it. I have been lucky though, I have been able to recover from it with little to no complications so, no reason to complain too much. I have also managed not to infect the rest of my family with it. They will get the cold, but they all fight it off quickly and for that I am thankful. Maybe after this I can stay healthy for alittle while anyway. All I want is 3 weekends of good health:) That would be a great start.

NO! I Can't Say It.

The in ability to say no. That is my number one problem in life. I want to help everyone all the time. But what happens is that my projects all suffer. I always put my homework off or laundry or dinner to say SURE when a friend needs help. That is usually fine except when I run out of hours in the day and I have no time left for my stuff! How do you balance helping out with your own needs?

Another Thing That Pisses Me Off!

Okay People, I am going to share my vast knowledge on "people skills" with all of you- When someone is volunteering and you are befitting from their volunteering, don't talk shit about them behind their back! Or, another thought, DO IT YOUR FUCKING SELF!

DONE!

You know how good it feels when you accomplish a task you set out to do, that is the feeling I am having right this very moment! A task years in the making- Done, off my list.

On a side note, I decided that triggering my insomnia while my kids are still gremy and we are 10 days away from a family vacation would be fun, so last night I never slept. I did clean the playroom, and do laundry straighten the foyer and do the dishes. I also knocked out a ton of shows on the tivo.

So far this lack of sleep has been productive for me and I got all my chore done this morning just incase I crash this afternoon. I even got dinner made so the family can have a good meal even if I am sobbing in the middle of the kitchen floor:)

Hopefully this bout of insomnia is short lived and I don't get sick from the monsters, but for now I will us my new found energy to work,work,work!

This Is Me, Alittle Anyway

There are many things I'd like to share on my blog, but for my family's sake I do not. The problem with that is that sometimes I need to get things out and this is where I like to share. So, without saying too much, I have been struggling the past few days. My sleep pattern is all messed up, I am a little on edge and well it is spilling over into my family life now. I have been somewhat inconsistent in my parenting and I am sure my husband has no clue what my reaction to anything is going to be. My eye is twitching and I my fuse is short. I am eating alot(and not because I am hungry) and drinking more coke than any human being should is a life time. Within a few days this will pass, it always does and things will be back to normal(as if that exists). And in a bit over a week I will be hanging out in one of my favorite places in the world with my family, all of it(oh, maybe that explains the twitching:)It should be quiet and peaceful in the Outter Banks and I should have some time to relax and sleep, read books and play in the sand. There is little I enjoy more than the beach in the winter, maybe the beach in the summer!

I guess I will go and get some house work done, I have a bathroom with my name on it:) I can also switch the laundry and start another load, this way when I am exhausted tomorrow, I can go back to bed after the monster head to school.

How far I have come in my life learning to deal with my issues, it has taken a long time, but now I try to go with the flow. Work with my body and do my best to move forward day-to-day without falling apart. Not worrying about only sleeping 2-3 hours a night, it is okay, I know I will sleep in a few days when I need to. Right now I have good stuff to fill my extra hours, cleaning, school work, dished, making lunches- I do often complain about wanting more hours in the day, now I have them:)