We Did It!

This evening, my entire family made it to church! I was so happy to make it. I am happy to say that the kids were fairly well behaved(Declan was perfect, Killi was good and Maggie, well she is 3). I did bring some paper and crayons for Maggie and she was fine. Husband is happy to go to church and doesn't much care which one. I was very happy. I knew all the prayers and the order of mass. Best of all they played my favorite song during Communion. It was not the prettiest Catholic Church I have ever been in, but it was very comfortable. I will officially join the parish next week and sign Declan and Killi up for CCD.

I am glad we went. I felt more comfortable today than I ever did at Husband's church. The only issue I had was that nobody gets dressed for church anymore. I mean really jeans and sweats for church?

Clean Now!

Friday night I had a break down. The state of our foyer put me over the edge, that and no consistent sleep all week. So, my poor husband after working all week had to step-up and clean it Friday night, which was about the last thing he wanted to do right then. That was great! And we got into to such a cleaning mood, that we spent the entire day on Saturday 10:30am to 11pm cleaning the house. Not just cleaning though, emptying closets, throwing out broken toys, dressers cleaned up, lots of paper thrown away. It was alot of work, and still there is more that could be done, but I feel better now:)

It amazes me how we collect that much junk is such a short period of time, it seems we need an over-haul every six months. Am I the only one with this issue? And if I am, tell me what I can to to stop it!

McCain's Pick!

So, Sarah Palin it is. John McCain went outside the party's comfort zone(Hard to believe with McCain, I know:)and pick a young, woman, governor from Alaska. WOW, what a progressive move could it be that the Republican party is not full of only OLD WHITE MEN! I think it is awesome that there is a woman on the ticket for Vice-President and it makes me happy that it is on the Republican Ticket.

I know little about Gov. Palin only what I have read today online. I am interested to see how she is going to be received by the Party and more importantly by women. We as women know, that women are the biggest critics of other women. Will they criticize her for not staying at home, will they praise her for having it all? Will she be accused of using her son's service for political gain? I can't wait to see what happens. It is going to be an exciting few months.

Personally, I think she is a strong, driven woman. A wife and mother like me and if anyone can multi-task it is a wife and mother. I hope she does it and becomes the first female VP of the United States! I guess well, wait and see.

What's in a (Japanese) Name...

It is late, so I put in my name, and WOW was it right on for me:)

My authentic japanese name is 天海 Amami (heavenly ocean) 恵美 Emi (blessed with beauty).
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Obama, What a Speech...

First off, I will admit that I am a political junky. Democrat, Republican I don't care, I will sit and listen to what you have to say. I pride myself as being one of the most knowledgeable voters around, and I usually know more about the candidate I am not voting for than the people who are voting for them do.

That said, tonight I sat and watched the entire Obama speech, as I have every speech each night of the DNC. Here is my take on the speech, 1) It was wonderful for my children to see that it really doesn't matter what color your skin is, as an American child you can grow-up to be anything you want to be as long as you work hard 2) There are a huge number of celebrates that are democrats(and free this week:) 3) Gosh, Sen. Obama likes to hear is own voice, because he talked around in circled and never really laid out his plan; he said a lot of nice things(my favorite being his use of a line from The American President, which is on of my favorite movies ever) 4) I am still waiting for his economic plan, because he never did explain how he was paying for all his programs like ending our dependence on foreign oil, affordable college, health care 5) I also want to know how he is going to force insurance companies to lower premiums because last I checked we still lived in a capitalist society. There were a few other issues I had with the content of the speech, but the speech itself was awesome to watch. The crowd and emotion were absolutely amazing and I am sure next week will not be near as exciting, bit I will still watch:)


** As a disclaimer I would like to say that I tend to vote republican(unless Mitt Romney is involved:) But that I always go into an election undecided and truly do watch anything political(watch interactively of course, me yelling at the t.v. both parties:) So you know where I'm coming from, I vote Republican because 1) I believe in small government 2) I am for lower taxes 3) I believe in a strong defense. Areas I disagree are 1) abortion- it should not be a government issue 2) gay marriage- should not be a government issue(although the same rights should apply to gay couples as do straight, i.e. health care) 3) I am for gun control, not against the 2nd amendment, but for control. So, as you can see, I am a libertarian by definition, but they always offer candidates that go too far off the reservation for me, but limited government would make me happy- live and let live I say.

Feeling Better...

I have been on new meds for about a month now and I have to say I feel so much better. I was concerned with the additions I was going to feel loopy or cloudy, but no I feel good. I still suffer from some anxiety, but it isn't as bad. I am also becoming more aware of what triggers my episodes and I am doing better controlling it. I am very conscience of my sleep(and insomnia) as that is one of the biggest triggers for me. I am also learning that it is important for me to take care of myself; otherwise I am no good to anyone else. I cannot help my family and care for them if I am not healthy myself.

All that good stuff said, there are some negative side effects. For instance, much lower sex drive( husband could do without this one:) also weight gain, now this one could be tamed if I would eat better and stop drinking coke:) You know, you can only change so much at a time, right? Maybe once the kids get back to school, I will get back to walking.

Another Shot

I've made the jump. Ben and I talked about it and I am going to join the a church. I am going to go back to the Catholic church because that is where I am most comfortable. It is what is familiar to me. This is not to say that I believe all that is taught by them or agree with their opinions on everything, it is where I have decided to go with my family so that my child can receive a religious education and foundation. I hope that we like the parish and that the priests are kind,open and approachable. I hope that we feel welcome and not out of place. I know the songs will be ones I know and the prayers ones I have learned and that will bring me comfort.

I guess the best I can do is give it a chance and see what happens.

I DID IT!

Graduation is set for October 18. I have worked towards this for 15 years and finally I am doing it. I will be getting my College Degree. And my kids and husband will be there to see it. I also have put in my applications for graduate school. I am proud of myself, it has taken a long, long time but I finished. Well, I am two weeks away.

I hope that my kids see that if you work hard you can do anything, even when life gets in the middle of your best-laid plans.

Sunday...

Another Sunday has come and it appears That I am no closer to going to church as I was last week. I spent a good bit of my free time this week researching churches in the area, but I still haven't found what I am looking for. I did however have one of my biggest questions answered for me. The question was, How is it that Christmas is always on December 25th, but Easter changes every year.

Husband has agreed to take the kids(well, Declan and Killi) to church and Sunday school starting next week. We'll see what happens, he has promised this before.

I'll keep looking.

A New Beginning .

This blog I thought I wanted to start for me. A place to share my thoughts and journeys through life. The changes both good and bad and the way I handle it. Sometimes I struggle with life, and I have good days and bad, and here I am going to share them all(well alot of them anyway:)

I am going through some changes in my life, searching for answers. I am growing as a wife and mother and I am growing spiritual as well. Some of my adventures are funny some sad, but I am putting them out there now. Maybe someone will read it and have some info for me or maybe I will have answers for some else. Most likely I will ramble and few will be able to follow, but it will be a good outlet for me.