Decisions

I think that people often act before thinking their decisions through. Most times the plans we make in our heads, do not play out that way in real life. When we are just "thinking" things through, it is easy to forget about the little details of life. The problem with that is that REAL LIFE is always there in the end!

So, maybe people should "think" before they say or do things. Really think about how your decision is going to affect you and everyone else. And not just on an immediate level, but long term. You might be surprised how powerful your decision will be to your friends and/or family.

How Am I? Thanks For Asking...

It's been a week and I will tell you, I got better, but it didn't last long! The cough lessened for a few days; now, it is back and I have lots to cough up. I also have something swollen on the side of my neck and my ear hurts. I am very tired and have had a headache for two days. I wonder if there is any chance of me EVER getting healthy before spring!

I guess when I get home, I will head back to the doctor and see what they can come up with next. I am just getting a bit tired of never playing at 100%. Believe me, I know there are many people that live everyday much worse off then me,and I am thankful not to be sick with anything serious, I am just sick of the not feeling well, because I know how good it feels when I am healthy:) I want that back!

Pneumonia!

All my coughing this week has apparently been caused to pneumonia. The doctor called today to confirm it. I knew it was either bronchitis or pneumonia, but I was hoping that I had eluded the pneumonia this time as it is so early in the cold/flu season, but no luck! I am starting to feel better though, now it is just the coughing! It is making my stomach and chest hurt sooooo bad!

When I get back from vacation, I will have some more tests run to see why I keep getting pneumonia and see what I can do not to keep getting it. I have been lucky though, I have been able to recover from it with little to no complications so, no reason to complain too much. I have also managed not to infect the rest of my family with it. They will get the cold, but they all fight it off quickly and for that I am thankful. Maybe after this I can stay healthy for alittle while anyway. All I want is 3 weekends of good health:) That would be a great start.

NO! I Can't Say It.

The in ability to say no. That is my number one problem in life. I want to help everyone all the time. But what happens is that my projects all suffer. I always put my homework off or laundry or dinner to say SURE when a friend needs help. That is usually fine except when I run out of hours in the day and I have no time left for my stuff! How do you balance helping out with your own needs?

Another Thing That Pisses Me Off!

Okay People, I am going to share my vast knowledge on "people skills" with all of you- When someone is volunteering and you are befitting from their volunteering, don't talk shit about them behind their back! Or, another thought, DO IT YOUR FUCKING SELF!

DONE!

You know how good it feels when you accomplish a task you set out to do, that is the feeling I am having right this very moment! A task years in the making- Done, off my list.

On a side note, I decided that triggering my insomnia while my kids are still gremy and we are 10 days away from a family vacation would be fun, so last night I never slept. I did clean the playroom, and do laundry straighten the foyer and do the dishes. I also knocked out a ton of shows on the tivo.

So far this lack of sleep has been productive for me and I got all my chore done this morning just incase I crash this afternoon. I even got dinner made so the family can have a good meal even if I am sobbing in the middle of the kitchen floor:)

Hopefully this bout of insomnia is short lived and I don't get sick from the monsters, but for now I will us my new found energy to work,work,work!

This Is Me, Alittle Anyway

There are many things I'd like to share on my blog, but for my family's sake I do not. The problem with that is that sometimes I need to get things out and this is where I like to share. So, without saying too much, I have been struggling the past few days. My sleep pattern is all messed up, I am a little on edge and well it is spilling over into my family life now. I have been somewhat inconsistent in my parenting and I am sure my husband has no clue what my reaction to anything is going to be. My eye is twitching and I my fuse is short. I am eating alot(and not because I am hungry) and drinking more coke than any human being should is a life time. Within a few days this will pass, it always does and things will be back to normal(as if that exists). And in a bit over a week I will be hanging out in one of my favorite places in the world with my family, all of it(oh, maybe that explains the twitching:)It should be quiet and peaceful in the Outter Banks and I should have some time to relax and sleep, read books and play in the sand. There is little I enjoy more than the beach in the winter, maybe the beach in the summer!

I guess I will go and get some house work done, I have a bathroom with my name on it:) I can also switch the laundry and start another load, this way when I am exhausted tomorrow, I can go back to bed after the monster head to school.

How far I have come in my life learning to deal with my issues, it has taken a long time, but now I try to go with the flow. Work with my body and do my best to move forward day-to-day without falling apart. Not worrying about only sleeping 2-3 hours a night, it is okay, I know I will sleep in a few days when I need to. Right now I have good stuff to fill my extra hours, cleaning, school work, dished, making lunches- I do often complain about wanting more hours in the day, now I have them:)

Resolutions!

It is the middle of November and I am happy to say that I have not come close to accomplishing ANY of the New Year's Resolution I made in January. I have not gotten myself into a job or into shape. My family spending has gone up this past year not down and we have not been spending enough "good" time together as a family. I guess the moral of this story is not to make such unrealistic expectation for myself or my family:) Seriously though, I am really making an effort to get back on track here. Maybe by the New Year I will get started on last years Resolution and I can make this years to continue last years:)

Class

I was just watching television and the news was on and I saw a story that made me once again, so proud to be an American. The story was bout the meeting that the Obamas and the Bushs are having tomorrow at the White House. The news reported that Mrs Bush and Mrs Obama will talk and tour the living quarters of the house while their husbands meet in the Oval Office to discuss the economy and how to make the transition to the new administration as seamless as possible. First, how much grace and dignity do the President and Mrs Bush have for inviting the Obamas so quickly to the White House and the Obamas for coming. It shows me that both families recognize that the office of the President is bigger than any one person and that they both respect that.

Here is the other incredible thing to me about this, not only are we getting a new president in January, but a president from a different party and still things are smooth and peaceful. For all the faults America may have, as a Democracy(yes, I know we are by definition a Republic) what a wonderful example of a free society we are. How incredible lucky we are to have that. I do wish that everyone could experience it at least once in their life.

I love days that make me this proud to be an American. And I am looking forward to watching the transfer of power. It heck it will be nice not to feel like I need to defend the President for the next 4 years since I didn't vote for him:) Really though, I have a open mind and I am looking forward to what will come next. I hope the Changed promised will come and be good.

Home!

School is taking up far more of my "free time" than I thought it was going to. I am not sure why, but it is. Essays and papers every week with projects thrown in for fun. I am enjoying it and I know that in the end I will have a degree(and hopefully a job) in a field I enjoy.

I am still not finding time to fit all I need and especially what I want into each day and week. It seems as the kids grow, my days are getting fuller and fuller. I hope I get into the swing of this parenting thing soon:) I felt like I had just gotten the toddler/preschool thing down- now a change.

I will say this, for the first time since we moved here, 4 years ago, I finally feel like I Live Here. I know people, I carpool, I run into people at the store, almost like being back "home" in NJ(in that I know people, not in the people I know:)

How Do They Do It?

I am a blogger junkie. I love reading about other peoples lives, some that are like mine, some that are very different. Mostly I read about other MOMS and how they get along day in and day out with their little ones. Often I find that someone out there has an answer or solution for whatever I am needing help with that day. When I am at my wits end with a nameless 3 year old, I can often pull up a blog of someone else just-as-spunky 3 year old and I am able to laugh instead of cry:)

Anyway, to the point, on a few blogs that I regularly read, the writers are very religious. Which I completely respect, but do not understand. For instance, the election outcome. Barack Obama won and will be our president for the next 4 years. If you believe that God leads those decisions and has walk President-Elect Obama to that office how can you then believe that God is firmly against abortion? Was God not part of the decision that ruled on Roe v. Wade?

And In California, the push by Mormons to make sure prop 8 won, was that God's will or was it God's will when the Supreme Court approved gay marriage?

I don't think I understand when people throw "god's will" out there. I am not sure if it a lack of faith on my part or that others are just able to interpret/ change God's will to protect/defend their own views on an issue. I'd like to know though. So if there is anyone out there willing to help me understand, I am listening.

Election Day!

Today was Election Day here in Virginia and the rest of the country, and how wonderful it is to be able to go and vote safely and freely for whomever we choose to. It is no secret that I did not vote for Sen. Obama, but I do believe that he is likely to be our next President and I think that is exciting. I am glad that my children enjoy the political process, and that they(on a 7,5&3 year old level)understand how significant it is for Sen. Obama to be running and likely winning the Presidency. We have spend many, many dinners talking about the election and I can tell you that I will be happy to change to another subject:)

I hope everyone voted and enjoy the next 4 years!

Not Fair!!!

I know I have said it before and I know I will say it again, but PMS is really not fair! Alot of times I try looking for ways in which men have something equally un-enjoyable each month, but I never can. I try to spin it in a positive light thinking that I am lucky enough to have been the one to carry our children and that was wonderful, but then I think and what I come up with is that I have given birth to three children and been pregnant for a total of 29 months, I have been suffering with PMS since I was 12, so that is 252 months(give-or-take) of which I was pregnant for less than 30, let's even say that I missed a few times and call it 200 months, still is seem unevenly unfair. Not to mention that being pregnant certainly does not eliminate PMS, if fact at times through it, I'd say it is worse!

Forgive me or the rant(PMS). It's just that sometimes being the stronger sex, just no fun-